Announcements Regarding: Reviews, Dreamspinner, and Scattered Thoughts and Rogue Words

As you know if you follow this blog, I write reviews to post here, but I also review for Scattered Thoughts and Rogue Words. They have made the announcement that Scattered Thoughts and Rogue Words is Going on Hiatus as of February 1, 2020. It is intended to return as of June 1, 2020. I will still be reviewing on this site during that time. I also post my reviews on Goodreads and Bookbub; you are free to follow me wherever you wish.

There is also a statement about Dreamspinner Press. I understand and support their stance–it is their website to do as they wish. I support all authors trying to make a living and I hope they all get paid. My stance is…I will support the author wherever they choose to publish. Many authors have chosen to ask for their rights back, but some authors have chosen to stay with Dreamspinner Press. I hope that works out for them so if they ask me to review their book, then I will here on my site. I am not going to ask to be removed from any author’s ARC team. This may have all created a bit of a mess for book links everywhere. Since many authors are republishing their books after the rights revert, there will be new covers, sometimes new titles, and a book may not be sold at all retail outlets any longer. I would advise readers to subscribe to an author’s newsletter or follow them on social media to find out the lastest information. You can click on the link below to read their statement for more information.

Please know, I don’t have any friends in this industry. I do not work for, nor have ties to any publisher or author. I do not friend authors on social media, although I am in their groups on Facebook and MeWe in order to see announcements about new publications, sales, etc. I pay attention to them on Goodreads and Bookbub or receive their newsletters, but only as it pertains to their work. I know next to nothing about them as people unless they way overshare in a way that I can’t help but notice. I did join a football pool. My point is: I am not trying to take sides or be political in any way. They write the books and publish them. It is their choice where to publish their work. I read the books and review them. I do not get compensated in any way and I am not an affiliate for any bookseller. Sometimes the review copy is free to me for my honest review, sometimes I win them in a contest, and sometimes I buy them. Please see the legal disclosure in the footer if you haven’t already.

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Release Day Review: Digging Deep (Digging Deep #1) by Jay Hogan


[This was painful for me to read because I have a chronic illness with similar issues. People are sometimes great when conditions are acute (like an emergency), but not so great when illness is chronic. They especially are not going to want to know details about your bowels, pain, depression, or anthing else unpleasant. It makes people uncomfortable. It’s not fun. So, I empathized with Drake immediately. In this world that is so sex driven, most people would try to avoid falling in love with someone who couldn’t or might not be able to have it–regardless of the reason. They like to think if the person they are already in love with got a serious illness or had a horrific accident, that they would stay…most won’t. But this, knowing ahead of time and still being willing to get involved with someone, tells you all you need to know. That’s why even though there is not a lot of dating and this all takes place in less than a year, I had no trouble believing the romance. Their lives are meshed together, their families and friends are blended. Parts of Drake’s life suck, and he’s been hurt, but haven’t we all? He is still pretty darn mean at times with his defense mechanisms, but it’s difficult to be nice when I am in pain–I lose sleep, patience, and my filter–so I get it. The petty crap and unimportant minutiae that many people focus on holds no importance for me. This is true for these characters also. They deal with live and death in their jobs. When people have health issues they can mostly hide given good timing and acting, it’s tempting to gloss it over and not let people see. The issue comes when people invite me out and I have to say no because I don’t feel well–most people finally just stop inviting me. If I go anyway and am not full of “all the fun”, I am a Debbie Downer. Even less fun is when people only see me when I am healthy, and then have a difficult time believing how I feel when I have health issues. Or, they see me when I don’t feel well and think, it doesn’t look that bad. What’s the big deal? I’m not constantly in the hospital or bleeding all over, so how bad can it be? This can be hurtful. People also always want to tell me what to do or use to fix me and make me better. While I appreciate it on one level, it is a bit egotistical to think they can cure what ten years of specialist doctors haven’t been able to with their talk of herbal tea, meditation, or vitamin supplements. I find this story believable because the people who will stay with you (romantic and platonic) are the ones who see you, believe you, and just accept you as you are. People who just want “fun” all the time are acquaintances or will drift away.]


via A Chaos Moondrawn Release Day Review: Digging Deep (Digging Deep #1) by Jay Hogan — Scattered Thoughts and Rogue Words

Rating: 4.5 stars out of 5

In an unfortunate series of events, Drake meets Caleb. This is meeting the right person in the wrong circumstances–or maybe not! It starts with an enemies to lovers vibe. Frankly, I didn’t quite feel the attraction during the hate phase, but once it gets going I was really rooting for these two. This takes place in Auckland, so there is use of New Zealand vernacular. It alternates first person POV in different chapters. I am hoping this is a typo and will be removed before publication, but it breaks the fourth wall in Cal’s thoughts, “and yeah, you heard what I heard.” It is only one sentence, but I didn’t like it.

This is an honest look at two people who meet and are attracted to each other, but will have to be mature and put the work in to maintain a relationship. This is flat out real in the way most romances are not. Sex is awkward, at times difficult, messy, and painfully vulnerable. This story explores all that. Many people say they hate it when the characters have issues because they just don’t talk to each other–here is your book where they have no choice but to communicate if they want to make this work. Medical issues are no joke and either one or the other of them could chicken out and run away without confronting the details on a daily basis, but they don’t. Neither does this book slap a label on it and call it a day, the reader gets the full nitty gritty about Drake’s illness and profession. This is all seriously intense; they barely date and then they are in it for life, and yet it still feels really believable. I am worried people won’t give this story a chance, or will give bad reviews, because of the discussions about bodily functions. This story is very good. Thankfully, there is plenty of humor also.

These families are loving, accepting, and have ribald moments of fun. These friends do not let the characters have rose tinted glasses or lie to themselves. This is what friendship looks like to me–people who will tell you harsh truths, not to hurt you, but to help you and still support your decisions, even if they think you are wrong. However there is also a great line in Caleb’s thoughts about making sure to not let your friends define who you are, “the first mistake I’d made was believing that Leanne’s version of me was maybe all there was.” I love that there is a wide and varied cast with representation of different cultures and sexualities. The epilogue takes place six months later and is heartwarming, taking them into the future together.

The cover art is by Kanaxa. I think it shows Drake and all I could think of was that expression “in the weeds,” which seems apropos.

Buy Links: Amazon US | Amazon UK | Dreamspinner | Universal Link

Book Details: ebook, 1st edition, 354 pages
Expected publication: August 6th 2019 by Dreamspinner Press
ISBN 139781644054192
Edition Language: English
Series: Digging Deep


My Spare Time, ARCs, and Bad Communication

Communication Breakdown

I’m not sure why I picked a hobby where I am required to write; maybe I have untapped masochistic tendencies. I am a talker in a world of texts, blogs, emails, private messages, tweets, and whatever other strange ways people have created to avoid talking. I am constantly forced to communicate in ways that put my natural talents at a disadvantage, never more so than yesterday in a conversation about ARCs (Advanced Reader Copies). I’ve been upset about it all night because I feel like I didn’t communicate my thoughts well at all and likely made myself look bad in the process. I know this happens to us all on occasion (right?) but I want to try and figure out how to say what I actually meant.

First Time Ever I Saw Your Face

The first m/m romance I ever read was a paranormal short story we read in the vampire group at the local library. Sadly, I can’t remember the title. I began buying m/m romance novels about seven+ years ago when a friend showed me a site called All Romance (ARe). There were loads of free short stories and I was hooked. Like a kid in a candy store, I downloaded everything free. Some of them were good, most of them were not to my taste. But, I had a difficult time convincing myself to delete any of them because they were free books! (I’ll return to this idea later.) The anthologies published by the m/m romance group on Goodreads really let me figure out what I liked and didn’t like, introduced me to a whole new world of authors, and helped me explore my own sexuality in a way I hadn’t before. The most important part of reading those books, for me, was being educated on different types of sexuality, becoming more empathetic and tolerant of others, and having a real appreciation of the lack of representation in mainstream culture for different ideas about love and sex. At that point, the amount of books I was buying was terrifying. Lol. If there was a sale, I was buying all the books in a series because I hate cliffhangers.

Love’s Paradise, Lost

When ARe closed, a lot of authors were screwed out of their royalties. For my part, I am not the most computer savvy person and I didn’t realize I had a computer virus until I was faced with having about 24 hours to try and figure out if all the books I had bought from them opened and if I could re-download them if they didn’t. Of course, everyone else was scrambling. Authors were pulling their books and the whole site stopped allowing me access to my library. I lost a lot of books, some free, but the vast majority were books I had spent years buying.

Just Another Brick In The Wall

I originally started out with Aldiko and was happy with it until one of the updates that I really didn’t like. I also didn’t like how it turned files into parts all in their own folder. I tried a few ereaders, that made strange changes to my library, before I settled on Moonreader and bought the pro-version. I had thousands (arguably more) of epubs by the point ARe closed. I was left floundering about where to buy books from anymore. There was no central place to go that had all my favorite authors. The issue was also one of format. I received a Kindle as a gift, but that is proprietary mobi. My library was way too large to email it all individually to my Kindle and at the time, if you bought books from somewhere else, Amazon charged you a disloyalty fee. I also didn’t want to buy books from Amazon that were in a series so that I would have to remember which books were in which app when I wanted to read them.

Hungry Like The Wolf

I had a good idea about some publishers I liked and made the decision, rightly or wrongly, to continue down the epub route. I created accounts with all my favorite publishers and started buying books from them. But, Allora’s Cave, Samhain, Loose Id…publisher after publisher closed. At that point I was also buying books from Smashwords, but increasingly my favorite authors were flocking to self publish at Amazon and making their books exclusive to Amazon. Today, when I buy a book I go to the publisher first (Dreamspinner, Riptide, DSP, JMS Books, Less Than Three Press, NineStar Press, Bold Strokes Books, Fireborn Publishing, Painted Hearts Publishing, Mischief Corner Books, Torrid Books, Purple Horn Press, Hot Tree Publishing, MLR Press, Totally Bound, Pride Publishing, Extasy Publishing, Mischief Corner Books, Carina Press, and OMG did I forget anyone?) Next, I might look at QueeRomance Ink to figure out where I can buy things. I know that authors receive more of the money if you buy directly from them, so I buy from the authors through Payhip (or any comparable competitor). Then, I look at Kobo to see if I can get a non-DRM epub (not always as this is dependent on the author/publisher’s format preferences), and then I try Smashwords. Whew! That is a lot of work just to buy a book. Masochistic? Maybe. However, I am committed to not letting Amazon have a monopoly and not allowing the big bookstores to force me to use their app or ereader. I should be allowed to buy the app I want and to use of the device of my choosing. I belive this strongly and I am willing to do the work. This used to be something we all believed, but somehow things got weird. Am I fighting a losing battle? Likely. However, the truth is I have enough books at this point that I probably can’t read them all before I die. How many books do I need to win?



Don’t get me started on people voluntarily agreeing to rent access to their own libraries! I have my own cloud. I am not paying anyone to store books I already own because my library is vast and they have taken out the hard drives and SD cards. Gah! I will not rent my own books from myself. I do understand the lure of the Kindle or Nook. You do not have to manage your own library. You don’t have to pay for storage (for now). You don’t have to worry about protecting your books from viruses. But, the cost is that you no longer actually own the book so you need to recognize that.

Free Candy, Candy

I started to follow a lot of book review blogs and join in many facebook authors’ groups so I knew what was being published and when (and where). At this point, I started to follow all the individual authors I like. I found wonderful things like Booksprout, Instafreebie, Bookfunnel, and Netgalley. I had loads of free books (again!) and was introduced to all new authors in the genres I like. I often enter contests on book review sites or in author groups and win. But, the price is every single bit of your free time. Many of these rafflecopter giveaways make you follow every single social media place an author is on in order for the chance to win a free book. So, I get emails from Amazon, Bookbub, the author’s blog, the author’s newsletter, the author’s publisher, etc. every single time this author publishes anything. (No I do not Tweet, so I often do not win because I don’t get all the points available.) That is thousands of emails since I follow hundreds of authors. Often, I get ARCs emailed to me–sometimes it is because I signed up to be in an ARC group, sometimes not. How can you not download a free book?

Under Pressure

At first, many of these authors were new to me. Some of these authors publish several times a month. I was having a difficult time keeping up with reading them, let alone reviewing them. Also, sometimes the quality is not there if an author is writing several books a month–I have doubts these are all written by the same person or just not bought in order to sell. (Yes, sadly that is a thing.) The etiquette is that if you receive a free book, you should review it. The author has given it to you in order to show you their writing style in the hopes you will both buy more books, and review it so others will buy more books. I am behind on two books right now and feel really pressured about it because downloading the books obligated me to review them. That is exactly why Amazon has changed their rules so that an author cannot give you a free book in exchange for a review, only in the “hopes” of one. Most people don’t seem to care, but me, I sit and worry about it–hence this post instead of me actually reading the books. Me feeling pressured takes all the enjoyment out of it. This is entirely my own fault and no one else’s.

Cogs In The Wheel

This is where Amazon and their algorithms kick in. An author really needs to have as many people as possible buy and review their book within the first 24 hours of a book’s release so that Amazon will help advertise the book because it is “hot.” That is what drives the ARCs. Do established, popular authors really still need to give away free books in order to increase their sales? I have no idea. I know Neil Gaimen is not going to be giving me a free book any time soon. I am not talking about books given to professional review sites, but let’s talk about those now. Because Amazon pays you if people use your links, I do not begrudge either authors from using Amazon links on their sites or in their newletters, nor book review websites from doing the same. However, when I ask authors if they are going to sell their book anywhere but Amazon, they tell me they don’t really sell from other sites. This is why. If you do not include links to other sites as options, are most people really going to drive themselves crazy looking for other places to buy your book like I do. Nope. I think I am unique there. Sigh. Is my ego so big that I think authors care about what I, one person, think about their publishing and moneymaking strategies? HELL NO. We all have to do what is best for ourselves and we are all doing the best we can. 

Fell On Black Days

Anyone can become an Amazon affliate. I am one. That means that if you click on an Amazon link on this site, I may get 4 cents. Because I believe Amazon shouldn’t have a monopoly, I provide links for other places for you to purchase every book I review, but if you are going to buy from Amazon anyway, I figure maybe four cents might be nice because this ARC reviewing takes A LOT OF TIME. If you do not have at least three clicks where people buy from your links within 180 days, Amazon drop you from the affiliate program. This is likely what will happen to me.


Never Satisfied

This is the point where I think I will talk about free books, which I have poked at throughout this article. I don’t know how one would go about being on Megan Derr’s ARC team if such a thing even exists. Or Sean Michael? Or Amy Lane? Or Kim Fielding? Or Eli Easton? Or Jordan Castillo Price? Or. Or. Or. Maybe I started this whole process too late and that ship sailed many moons ago. I know these authors are auto-buys. I would think they have enough name recognition to drive their sales, but what do I know. I am algae in the great book sea. I tend to get free books from lesser known, less established authors. Many publishers will not give you ARCs unless you have at least 500+ followers on your blog, some publishers require 1000+. That is not me. That may never be me. I buy all these books that are the top of their genre that I don’t even get to enjoy reading, because I have been reading free ARCs and reviewing them, as I promised. When book review sites post their best books of the year list, I feel like I lost out because even though I usually own them (I bought them), I have not had time to read them.

Crazy Train

Right now, this algorithm business is what is causing Amazon to hold all the cards and increasingly holding us all hostage to this pressure to give and review ARCs in a neverending stream of stress. Many times if an author only sells through Amazon, an ARC is the only way I can read their work at all. I should be happy about free books! And believe me, getting free books worth having is a full-time, unpaid job–my time and my mental health are worth more. Right now, I liken it to an all you can eat buffet–sometimes it’s better to not go for that second plate. Sometimes, you need storage room so it’s time to delete the books you didn’t enjoy and will never read again. You don’t have to eat everything off your plate. Sometimes, you should not download the free book. Sometimes, you should order off the menu–just buy the one book you actually want.

Mamma’s Got A Brand New Bag

My new stategy is to join a professional review site where I can have access to ARCs from bigger publishing companies that I would not be able to get ahold of myself. Those reviews will not be posted here; this is my personal site. I plan to unfollow and leave the ARC groups for some authors whose writing is not to my taste or whose books are so frequent, I can’t keep up. I will not download all the free books. I will not download all the free books. I will not. Lol. Be patient with me as I implement this new strategy.

Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow

What does that mean for you, random blog follower? That means, I hope this blog will be reviews of: ARCs from up and coming authors that I enjoy, authors I love whose books I have purchased, and books I have won in contests that allow me to try something new. I want to enjoy my book reading. I do not like giving bad reviews, but I will if I have to whether the book is free or not. I will reduce my social media interactions because I don’t want to be friends with authors, I want to read their books and be non-biased about my opinions. I hope you want all those things too.